why are you so downcast O my soul?

Tonight we worshiped in our class room facing the water while the sun was setting,and as we all began to sing peoples hearts immediately opened up and I watched as they jumped into complete "bliss." I didn't know what to think, I confess I was embarrassed. I couldn't "feel" God the music was different the place was different and i couldn't "relax" I felt left out like I belonged on the outside of the room-like i should stand off and just watch. Someone approached me during our prayer time during the service and I asked if she could pray for my fears. She asked if I could be more specific and i just broke down-"i cant feel God I don't know what to do, I feel so left out." My relationship with God feels so cold and It is the scariest feeling especially being where i am right now! I mean hello im in YWAM i just sacrificed my "entire life" to God for the next six months Im supposed to be on fire right now ready to do missions? I can't even worship!? I feel like im staring from the very beginning -im a baby christian innocent and naive again. I don't understand. I can't even describe it on this blog. BUT i do hear God saying go to scripture i NEED scripture thats the only way I will find Him here. So i decided to begin by searching for what I am feeling at this time and just writing it out ...

(Psalm42:5)  Why are you downcast, O my soul? Why so disturbed within me? Put your 
hope in God, for I will yet praise him, my Savior and my God.

Lam3:17) I have been deprived of peace; I have forgotten what prosperity is. Psalm73:16 When I tried to understand all this, it was oppressive to me

(Psalm77:3)  I remembered you, O God, and I groaned; I mused, and my spirit grew 
faint. Selah

(Mat14:31)  Immediately Jesus reached out his hand and caught him. "You of 
little faith," he said, "why did you doubt? 40  He said..., "Why are you so afraid? Do you still have no faith?"

Psalm 42:2 My soul thirsts for God, for the living God. When can I go and meet with God?
 Psalm 42:3 My tears have been my food 
       day and night, 
       while men say to me all day long, 
       "Where is your God?"